High maintenance...

I maintained this week, which is pretty good after having had an afternoon tea, a couple of bits of wedding cake and a couple of individual garlic flatbreads. The rest of the time I was v good - salads or leftover free foods for lunches and loads of fruit as snacks.

I think, however, I may be eating too much fruit.  At work we get baskets of fruit delivered every Monday and Wednesday and every time I walk past them I pick out a bit of fruit and eat it. I think I'm doing it more out of force of habit than actually eating it because I am hungry, so wonder if that's having an adverse affect on my weight loss.

I've been thinking (which some would tell me is a dangerous thing to attempt)... when I first started on this journey I had a reason to lose weight - to feel confident and comfortable in my wedding suit and to llok my best for our big day. Now I don't seem to have a reason - I'm just trying to lose weight because I want to. Except that as much as I want to I still can't avoid temptation on a regular enough basis to sustain a loss, instead fluctuating around the same weight for months on end. I need to find something to aim for, something that will get me truly motivated again and help me get over my love of all of the wrong food. If I can't manage that then I don't know whether I will get any further with my weight loss and could just as easily give in and go back to eating foods that I like all the time without worrying about the consequences. I know that's not the right thing to do, and I sincerely doubt I will do it, but sometimes I do feel like jacking it all in. At group we are now in teams, with each team being awarded points based on pounds lost and awards achieved by its members. Hopefully that will spur me on, since I don't want to let my team down. Let's see how competitive I get after a few weeks of this.

Next weigh in marks the start of a new month, so I'm going to set myself a mini target: to lose weight at more weigh ins than I put on weight. Wish me luck!!